Monday, 24 January 2011

Knitting therapy


I love this cheery jelly that Daisy and Fred made a couple of weeks ago.

It's how I'd like to be feeling.

I'm definitely feeling better than I was but I'm still a long way off normal and I find weekends and my days off work the hardest of all - because there's no structure or routine.  And I'm just not good on my own.  It's too easy to find myself sitting and crying, unable to do anything to pull myself out of despair - no matter how many times I remind myself how lucky I am to have a lovely family, home, friends, job, life etc.  I've found I don't cry if I'm knitting but I find it hard to motivate myself to start knitting in the first place.

Hopefully a new ball of  gorgeous pink sock wool bought this morning will inspire me. 


Thanks for the lovely trip out Patti

(a bad photo of it unfortunately as my camera is rubbish - there's a better photo here)

33 comments:

Daisie said...

Pink socks are always worth lookign forward to! xxx

MichelleW said...

That jelly is cool though I hope they are sweetie fried eggs and not sliced boiled eggs - now that would be funny.

Oh Lucy, I can only imagine how you are feeling, I have the blues but I know this must be nothing compared to what you are feeling - days at home can stretch can't they - I know too that doing something (anything) helps but sometimes it's really hard to force yourself. Hopefully that pink wool will tempt your appetite. Keep on lovely Lucy, you will get there with the love of your friends, family and wobbly jellies.

Warmest of hugs
Shell xxxx

dottycookie said...

It doesn't get better than wibbly wobbly jelly!

Hang in there, Lucy. I'm sure we're all rooting for you and thinking about you. Long hours with nothing in them can seem hugely daunting - which is probably why I spend so many hours up at the school. I sometimes wonder whether they think I'm just a helicopter mum, but hopefully I'm useful too!

Simone said...

I am so sorry that you feel so down. Just think, next week will be February and then March when the clocks spring forward. Hang on in there Lucy. It is a miserabale time of year if you are affected by the weather and even if you are not, the winter can attribute to negative feelings. Lovely jelly by the way! x

wonderwoman said...

Don't be so hard on yourself Lucy, its an illness, trouble is no-one can see it, its not like a broken arm or leg. It will get better .
am thinking of you.
huge hug

xx

Jodie said...

Lucy, I thought those were eggs on your jelly...Not that I wouldn't be supportive of fried eggs and jelly - you know I would..I was just caught a little off guard...

(and its nice to see you )

silverpebble said...

Thinking of you.

xxxxxxxx

mrspao said...

Hope things start to get better soon.

rachelmp said...

Oh Lucy. I'm thinking of you! Keep knitting. I'll challenge you to make a scarf as long as Ayden if that helps :) I do love the pink sock wool too

Lina said...

Sounds like keeping yourself busy with knitting is the best tonic. Hoping your knit your way to a better place.
Lina xoxoxox

Gina said...

Keep that knitting by your side ready to pick up at any time! Thinking about you Lucy - there will be sunny days ahead. G x
p.s. I thought it was boiled eggs and jelly!

loulee said...

Days out with good company and knitting pink socks are good signs. I know it can be difficult to motivate yourself, I'm sure the little lockets help with that. Does someone have a birthday soon? Someone who needs a hand knitted gift, a goal or time limit may help to motivate you.
((Hugs))

Annie said...

Great jelly and gorgeous wool hope it gets you motivated I look forward to seeing the end results.

Middle Cottage Diary said...

I have not been blogging for a while so I am only just catching up on reading other peoples blogs. It sounds like you are slowly on the mend although I know only too well that it is never fixed, you just manage to cope better sometimes.

You will get there in your own way and in your own time. But knitting is great for kepping the mind and fingers busy!

xx

Cybèle said...

Lucy, I think more of us than you'd think can imagine what you're going through from personal experience. You're definitely not alone, even if it feels like that. and the fact that you're back to blogging, is a good sign, isn't it.
Hope you start to feel more like yourself soon. I normally lurk on your blog but wanted to send you some get better vibes!

julie said...

I'm glad you're tempted by a little knitting and that when you're able to get going it helps a little. Little moments of simple pleasure are soothing in troubled times and I hope that they soon start to become bigger moments and start joining up to fill the desolate gaps. I echo what wise wonderwoman above said and wish you some smiles with your lovely new pink yarn.

marit said...

I'm thinking of you, and sending you a big hug:-)

(and if you're in lack of inspiration, maybe this could boost it:
You don't have to understand the words...)
Marit

marit said...

sorry- I tried to send you a link, but it didn't work...I'll try again: http://meretesmonstermonster.blogspot.com/

Marit

Thimbleanna said...

Oh dear. One step at a time Sweet Lucy. Sending you big ol' jumbo hugs!

Helen said...

Small steps Lucy, remember the tortoise and the hare . . . . . . . . . . . . Love H xx

ladydi said...

Beautiful yarn, Lucy, just like you! Get started at once, because that self striping yarn is addictive. Once you see the patterns forming you can't wait to see what happens next. Kind of like reading a good book. :0)

Suzie Sews At DOTTY RED said...

Oh Lucy, just had to comment, my heart goes out to you, lord knows I can relate to your emotions. My life is upside down, so I have no fancy solutions or words of wisdom, just sending you hugs and lots of positive thoughts. Small Steps small steps...

Yuriko said...

Hello Lucy.This is the first time to write you. I'm Japanese teaching English in Japan. I found your HP searching something about Mother Goose materials and I crushed on your HP. Recently I and my two sons escaped from my so-called husband hitting my kids, I haven't seen you for a while finding your situation.I don't know what to say but I'm thinking of you from far east Jananese sky.
You have been always encouraging me when I was in hard time.
From all my heart, Yuriko

Little women said...

Hi Lucy, I found myself with post natal depression 8 years ago and so reluctant to admit it to ANYONE! Oh the shame of not being a sunny positive person people expected me to be! How very silly but reality. I grew a garden and that helped. It made me see that life goes on happily and I felt a real sense of achievement. Tricky in your winter I am sure. Day by day, setting realistic goals, and medication, I did come good. Hang in there girly. I know you can do it. I believe in the power of every women!

. said...

Hi,im not sure if i already stopped by but i just wanted to say thank you for visitng my blog and im glad you enjoyed it!
Love Kirsty xxx

Leanne said...

I'm with Ric Rac I thought they were
eggs on the jelly monster also. Keep on knitting and hang in there I can't imagine how you are feeling but I hope things brighten up soon.

Kitty said...

I'm a great believer in the fact that being creative is soothing to the soul and spirit. Doesn't really matter what the creative thing is, just that you're doing it. I'm glad you're going in the 'right' direction ... thinking of you. (((L))) :) x

Anonymous said...

Visiting your blog has often lifted my spirit and my mood I hope with the encouragement of all your friends you continue to feel a little better every day.

French Knots said...

What an outpouring of love and support for you. Hang in there, knit a little, sew a little when you can and keep on keeping on.xx

joanie said...

Our recent dark weather was getting me waaaaay down. I decided I needed a different outlook, so I moved the furniture around. Try and get yourself and the family out and about at the weekends and plan ahead of time if you feel a schedule or routine helps you. I know it's difficult because children have plans and homework and such, but even eating one meal out together can help. And you get the added bonus of not cooking or washing up.

You are lucky to have a lovely home and family, friends, etc., but depression doesn't allow you to feel lucky.

You can knit me some mittens if you like, just to help you feel better of course ;)

Be patient with yourself, and be good to yourself, you deserve it.
I'm sending you a big hug, Jx

Jackie said...

Its hard to think of you feeling so low. I just want you to know you are in my thoughts.
Would a walk be out of the question? Sometimes if I force myself for half an hour or so out I feel better. You meet people too which can help.
x

Moogsmum said...

That is truly the best jelly - great job Little Lockets!

I hope that lovely pink wool works it's magic and gives you many happy hours of knitting. I'll be texting you tomorrow....you have been warned! I have an actual day off at last - woohoo!

xxx

Magic Bean said...

Just found your blog and was so sorry to hear that you'd been 'black-clouded'. I am pleased that you are feeling well enough to blog and knit again- small things, little and often. Good friends, suppportive family and quite a bit of chocolate. Here's to a happy, healthy and cloudless rest of 2011. Ax

PS I am in awe of anyone who can knit.