Well that was quite a long and unexpected bloggy break - sorry about that and thank you for the kind emails you have sent asking if things were ok.
Unfortunately things haven't been ok for quite a few months.
I've had problems with severe anxiety for over 15 years and have pretty much learnt how to live with it with the help of good old prozac but earlier this year, in my wisdom, I decided that I was "better" and didn't need the medicine anymore.
Oh how wrong I was.
And although I came off the tablets gradually the dramatic crash when I hit rock bottom wasn't gradual at all.
I quickly got myself back on my medicine and things started to improve but then I became severely depressed as well.
I'm used to dealing with anxiety and keeping busy to distract myself but the total nothingness of depression was something new and I haven't known how to deal with it.
From knitting 6 different projects at once I found myself unable to craft or read or do anything at all and that was hard.
I think I'm beginning to get better - although each day is difficult - and I have decided to try to "blog myself better". I've always found blogging to be the perfect way to celebrate the little things that make life lovely and now more than ever I need to notice and appreciate those little things.