After over 18 years of living with debilitating OCD that totally dominated my life I am now completely free of it - which is something I had never dreamt possible - I thought I would be shackled to it for the rest of my life. I can now do anything I want and the sense of liberation is overwhelming. I am so buoyantly happy and can enjoy life with my lovely family without the tyranny of rules and rituals and constant anxiety.
It hasn't been a sudden change but has taken years of hard work as I have painstakingly unlearned all the OCD ways of being. To use a knitting analogy, I haven't been able to rip out rows and rows of flawed knitting in one fell swoop but instead have had to carefully unpick and reknit each faulty stitch one at a time.
Although I have mentioned my struggle with anxiety and depression on my blog I have never publicly admitted to having OCD - but now I am so proud to have beaten it that I am shouting it from the rooftops!
2013 was a good, good year with many fabulous family camping trips (unthinkable with OCD) and lots of running - including a half marathon!
And the running combined with Weight Watchers means I am starting 2014 five and a half stone lighter! It has taken over 3 years but I'm now at my goal weight (well, I was until Christmas!!) and I feel fantastic! Now my new year's resolutions don't have to start with 'lose weight' as they always have. Ideally I'd like to lose a little bit more - but I don't HAVE to which is brilliant.
So now I am fit in both body and mind, and thin for the first time in 20 years, the world is my oyster! 2014 here I come!!